Here’s to doing better

To be totally honest, I had almost a whole other blog post written about the way quarantine has changed me in negative ways, when I scratched it all and this poured out.

When all you have is time, you find ways to fill it (one of my talents is taking on too many things at once). I was sick of the old “doom scroll” online and wanted a different kind of content. Fast Forward a month and we are now having bible studies every single morning.

When I lived in Quincy I went to 2 bible studies a week plus church PLUS my dad was the pastor so I could grill him with questions at any time of day, I was immersed in the Word at all times, it was my normal. When you move away and have a different environment (different needs to be underlined and highlighted but I digress). It is easy to fall into a normal that is apart from God. And boy oh boy does quarantine make it easy to stay in pjs all Sunday.

Without noticing, slowly, and subtly, I became comfortable. I knew God was there, and I knew I could thank Him for my day each night but this lukewarm routine was it.

I got used to the occasional hate, the comments, and how uncomfortable people are when I say I have church Sunday morning and my parents aren’t forcing me.

I realize now that people’s comfort in attacking what I believe in my face is my fault. You see, I must have been too quiet, allowing my fear of confrontation or someone getting mad, to hinder verbal spread of the Gospel.

I was recently around some pretty amazing people who are so firm and rooted it inspired (really thats a weak word for what happened) me to walk the walk and trust in He who is so much greater.

Here’s to doing better

Mark 8:34 —- And calling the crowd to Him with His disciples, He said to them, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me.